It's tiring being here. I won't lie. I woke up today and had absolutely no energy. I think I'm sick. That'd explain the headache, no desire to eat, little energy, sleeping for vast amount of time, and the really runny nose. I think Ukraine is trying to kill me.
What else is there to update with? Life is complicated. I'll keep some of this on the down lo' because well it involves more than just me. But things are complicated and yet not. That itself sounds complicated. It all goes back to trying to figure out things.
I've met someone that to put it plainly, makes life interesting. I call them, they call me, and we hang out. It's a good thing. But it's complicated. Wow...my descriptions suck. But hey it all goes back to keeping some form of privacy going until it's okay to be "public". Whatever that really means. It's rough being the nice guy but someone's gotta do it.
I can say that the whole "complicated situation" has made life interesting and kind of fun. That really helps when the winter starts in November and night occurs at 4pm. That's just painful really.
I need a break from this country. I mean all through training I just kept thinking "when do I get a vacation?" It was just day in and day out of training. Yet I've gone every day since the exact same way. It's tiring.
I think tiring is my word of the day. Tiring to be nice, work, and live here. I need a break. Maybe someone will just do something really nice for me and then I'll get a good recharge. Hopefully that's something like "hey you don't have to work tomorrow" or "how about I clean your apartment for you".
I've noticed that people wear me out and sap my happiness from me. That sounds weird to say and yet weirder to notice. I guess its true though. I spend a lot of time trying to get other people to smile or do something and it just slowly drains me of energy. Thus I occassionally get cranky and unwilling to do things. At this moment...feeling like being an ass just because. But I won't...
What else is there...? Going home for sister's birthday and for Christmas. HOLLA! I'm white and I just said that, deal! I look forward to the la-z-boy, American television, and home cooked food.
Oh and there's the possibility of going to Poland when I go back. I've never been, sounds exciting and relatively close. We'll see though. Another volunteer asked to combine our trips into one. So who knows.
That's all I got at the moment. Not too intriguing but there be an update.
